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*Meru-san

Based on a true story.

Long journal is long.

Journal Entry: Sun Jul 12, 2009, 3:56 PM
Commissions/Trades/Requests info, please read it before you ask me stuff: [link]
Commission status: CLOSED
Trades: ONLY if I ask YOU. Sorry!
Requests: No!
Gifts: ...That's not something you ask for, you just get it. ;3


I'm holding a raffle. :3
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This is going to be a very long entry. Most probably the longest I've ever typed, so I'll divide it into smaller pieces so you can read what's relevant to your interests (if there's anything here that is relevant to your interests. I don't know.) and skip the rest.

Engagement
One of my friends told me that her boyfriend has asked her to marry him, so right now she's happier than she's ever been before, floating around on pink clouds, lah-dee-dah...The problem? I hate th'guy. He doesn't deserve her at all. He's cheated on her twice. TWICE. With the same girl! A girl he claimed he didn't even want to poke with a stick, and then he was like "No wait, I do love you after all. :( Bawww, take me back!". OH REALLY? THEN YOU SHOULDN'T'VE FUCKING TREATED HER LIKE TRASH YOU IDIOT!
I just want to shout at her. NO! Don't do it! Don't. Do. It! He'll hurt you again!
If a man or woman (Women can be unfaithful too, oh yes they can.) has cheated on you, you shouldn't take him/her back. You deserve something better!

Moving
I'm going to move out of my parents house soon, so right now I'm going through everything I've collected during my life. It's quite a lot.

Michael Jackson
No, I didn't know him. No, he couldn't possibly be more dead. No, I'm not going to "Stfu about it." Let me mourn for as long as I have to, and just move on if it annoys you.
I loved him. I suppose that's considered a crime nowadays, but I did. I do.
It's like I've lost a friend, not just a musician. To me he was so much more.
...I just heard that his fans are killing themselves. That's not only sad, but extremely stupid. It won't make anything better!

I'm horny
What, do you want me to lie? Girls can be horny too. I've been googling for pictures of the Joker, Willy Wonka, Sweeney Todd, and Darth Vader (Yes, I have a very odd taste in men.) for hours now. ASdfghjklgwargh!

Art
I'm going through one of those periods when EVERYTHING I draw turns out like SHITE! No, that's not something "I'm just saying". It's like my hand just won't obey. I hate it.

Commissions and trades.
Have I ever mentioned that I'm an arse? Oh? Well, do you believe me now?
There's a pile of ridiculously overdue commissions and trades on my desk. I tend to take on too much, It's a bad habit.

Money
I really do need money to pay for a small accident I caused. I'm thinking of selling my NDS if anyone's interested because I don't really use it any longer. It does have some scratches on it, but it works as if it's brand new! I paid $200 for it, so maybe $100 would be fair? Or $80? It costs a lot to ship it.

40 truths tag
Just for the heck of it, I'm going to make this journal entry longer than it already is.

Tell us 40 truths about yourself. GO!

1) I'm addicted to strawberry chocolate.

2) I love yaoi and yuri.

3) I love it when someone nibbles on my neck or my wrists.

4) Spiders terrify me.

5) I used to cut myself when I was 14-15. Most of the scars are gone now, but I can still see some of them.

6) I tried to drown myself in the bathtub once too. I was a very angsty teen.

7 Most of my idols are dead.

8) I like animals better than people.

9) I love to sing even though I'm not very good at it. I'm not bad, just...mediocre.

10) I can't go anywhere without music in my ears.

11) I'm chubby.

12) I love moths.

13) I'm very naive. If people tell me lies I'll usually believe them.

14) I fall in love with fictional villains, but I don't like bad guys IRL.

15) I collect things with Hello Kitty on them.

16) I don't wear bras. My titties are tiny, so I don't need any.

17) I'm in love, but I don't know with whom.

18) I still love to play hide-and-seek.

19) I have more than 100 OCs.

20) Man, this is harder than I thought it would be.

21) I'm bisexual.

22) I tend to fall in love with my own OCs. |D

23) I love comics.

24) I'm sociophobic.

25) I want a hamster. I'll buy one as soon as I can and I'm going to call it Caligula or Thelonius.

26) Psychopaths fascinate me.

27) I stutter a little.

28) I love freckles.

29) When I enjoy something I do it quietly, so people usually think I'm bored when I'm actually happy. I've been yelled at because of that. That's why I loathe that horrible woman now.

30) Unlike most girls I don't like to talk about my feelings.

31)...Or makeup.

32)...Or boyfriends. IT'S SO BORING!!!

34) I still cry whenever I watch The fox and the hound. Stfu.

35) I eat too much.

36) I love being unintelligent.

38) I want a pet snake, but I'd never be emotionally strong enough to feed it. D| I love mice!

39) I think/daydream about sex. A lot. Clean, romantic sex. Not wet and messy porn, eww.

40) I tag you if you're reading this! Muahahahah!!!

  • Mood: Stuck
  • Watching: Pistvakt

Kiriban: Cancelled.+Do iiiit. :3

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 11, 2009, 4:21 PM
Commissions/Trades/Requests info, please read it before you ask me stuff: [link]
Commission status: CLOSED
Trades: ONLY if I ask YOU. Sorry!
Requests: No!
Gifts: ...That's not something you ask for, you just get it. ;3


I'm holding a raffle. :3
[link]

Want to use my pictures? Read this:
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I'm sorry, but due to my clumsiness I'm going to need my money to pay for the results of a minor accident. I'd rather not go into details about it because it's too embarrassing.


Stolen thingy from :icondunkler-adlig::

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favourite Film:
5. Favourite Song or Album:
6. Favourite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of dA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favourite memory of us?
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

  • Mood: Regretful
  • Watching: Pistvakt

asdfghjklWhut! <3

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 8, 2009, 5:01 AM
Commissions/Trades/Requests info, please read it before you ask me stuff: [link]
Commission status: CLOSED
Trades: ONLY if I ask YOU. Sorry!
Requests: No!
Gifts: ...That's not something you ask for, you just get it. ;3


I'm holding a raffle. :3
[link]

Want to use my pictures? Read this:
[link]



...I just found some REALLY old drawings. I mean it! They're like...5-7 years old. SO I'M GOING TO SPAM YOU NOW.

  • Mood: Adoration

I think one of my friends is suicidal.

Journal Entry: Tue Jun 30, 2009, 3:57 AM
Commissions/Trades/Requests info, please read it before you ask me stuff: [link]
Commission status: CLOSED
Trades: ONLY if I ask YOU. Sorry!
Requests: No!
Gifts: ...That's not something you ask for, you just get it. ;3


I'm holding a raffle. :3
[link]

Want to use my pictures? Read this:
[link]



She's been talking a lot about how much she hates her life lately, she's even planned her own death. She wants to finish the book she's been working on for a while, and then she doesn't want to live any longer.
How do I know if she's being serious, or if she's just...looking for attention? That sounds harsh, doesn't it? I'm sorry, but I've seen so many unserious "suicidal" kids, I just don't know how to tell the difference any longer.

If she IS serious, then I have no idea how to deal with suicidal people. What do I say to her? What can I do? She's been one of my best friends for 15 years, I don't want her to feel like that.

  • Mood: Worried

I'm going to clean out my gallery.

Journal Entry: Sun Jun 28, 2009, 12:51 PM
Commissions/Trades/Requests info, please read it before you ask me stuff: [link]
Commission status: CLOSED
Trades: ONLY if I ask YOU. Sorry!
Requests: No!
Gifts: ...That's not something you ask for, you just get it. ;3


I'm holding a raffle. :3
[link]

Want to use my pictures? Read this:
[link]



EDIT: Done.

  • Mood: Tired

Stamps and stuff

Best friend, pet, slave and main victim of molestation: :iconcottoncandyneko:

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